Magical Music

– January 2019 –

Actually, it was a good day. My doctor even visited me to bring me a prescription for an antiseptic ointment for the infection site on my knee.

I had prepared a coaching and so much joy, pleasure and energy.

And I took care of my knee, as I do several times a day: massage, strengthening exercises, running up and down stairs, sending good energy and practicing bending.
It didn’t go one millimeter further :-(

After the massage I felt it was looser and less cemented in. As soon as I walked a few steps, the joint became firm again like plaster. I just didn’t feel like it anymore.

Could it be that my knee wanted to get rid of the screws again?

Usually you do something like that after a year. It was only four months.

If the infection didn’t go away, I had to have another surgery.

Two surgeries in one year?

Every day I gave my body the best food, loving thoughts, I did everything carefully and was patient. I really did my best every day and still felt that I was doing everything wrong.

Dear universe, how can I inspire people to reconnect more with their bodies, encourage them to believe in their inner wisdom and miracles – and above all to follow their hearts?

Perhaps there are no miracles. Maybe I should just be more in my head again and decide things from there. Maybe I should go right back to the hospital and go through the whole procedure.

And maybe everything doesn’t always make sense, it just went like shit.

I didn’t know what else to do.

Dear universe, dear knee, please please please let a little miracle happen and show me that I am on the right track for me. I really don’t know what else to do.

The miracle came…

I walked very slowly in front of the house. Up and down.

In my ear I had my MP3 player, which my husband had given me once. Because I had ISG problems running in the past, he gave me this player with a personal engraving: „Butzi, keep on running!!“.

Butzi was his nickname for me, because in his opinion I am so „cute“. And since we live in Franconia, with hard „B“ ;-)

So I put one foot in front of the other and suddenly the unbelievable happened.

It came „Hold on“ from Wilson Philips. Exactly the song I had heard in the car one day before the accident on Kauai’i.

I didn’t know what was happening to me, but at the touch of a button my legs started to accelerate. They kept getting faster and faster. I could not control it at all.

Left. Right. Left. Right. Totally confident. Totally in balance.

What just happened there?

I knew at that moment that none of this happened by accident. Not the accident, not this song. I just had to trust somehow…

Of course I wanted to try it again. When the song was over, I played it again.

Nothing like this happened again …

Thank you for reading my very first article in english on this website :-)